maanantai 22. huhtikuuta 2013
Summary in English:
I'm taking a break from cosplay. I've no idea for how long, but at the moment I just don't feel like I'm getting anything out of this hobby.
I feel like I've been doing this for the wrong reasons for a long time. Like I owe it to other people to keep making costumes and to be super good and professional and entertaining, even though this is something you're supposed to be doing for yourself.
It can get pretty exhausting, and even though I've had loads of amazing people support me and tell me to just keep going, there comes a point where a hundred people telling you you can do it matters far less than your own head saying you can't.
Cosplay is a hobby, and as such, it should be something that allows you to take a break from your everyday life. But for the past few years cosplay has more or less felt like the necessary evil; something I've promised to do even though I don't really want to. Sure, I've had a lot of fun as well but a few awesome moments just don't outweigh the ones when I'd much rather stay at home instead of putting on a costume and going to a convention.
I haven't really had the guts to speak up about this before but now it's just reached a point where I just don't want to keep doing it anymore. For now.
And, well, I'm getting a dog soon, and I think I'd rather spend all my time and money on the puppy rather than costumes I'll wear once and then bury into the depths of my closets.
I'll still hang around, I just won't be making new costumes. And even though all this sounds very depressing, I'm not sad at all. Indifferent, more like. It'd be wonderful to be able to say this is a hard decision to make but it really isn't.
So, you know. You won't get rid of me just yet, you just might be seeing a little less of my face for a while.